Dude,its been too long.I don’t know what made me want to write today.Everyone’s into tumblr now where all I see is pictures but not genuine feelings.What ever happened to being real?Forget about that.
Its already the 2nd month of the year.Just one more month for me and farewell books.I’m giving up books for money.Thats what I am.I live for money.No,actually I don’t.My parents are not getting any younger and its time for me to pay back.See,I’ve grown up.Hahahaha.But my parents still think I’m the baby at home.Well sorry I cry watching sad dramas.
I hope your 2010 has been treating you good because 2010 has treating me quite fairly.I have great friends,great family,I’m happy.Thats all I ask for.Maybe more pocket money too.I can’t seem to find a decent part time job yet i’m spending my weekends away.Sometimes,I even forget what I did during the weekends.Too many events this year.Concerts,and F1 ticket selling tomorrow.I’m not a fan of fast cars but a fan of events that turn the country upside down.And the fashion festival..well,the tickets are all sold out anyway.Except the $400 where you go through VIP entrance.Never experience that.Might consider going if I was a rich girl…nananannaa.People are eager to become volunteers for the event.I mean,why do you want to do a permanent damage on yourself?If I see a skinny model with her ribs coming out,I might seriously consider suicide.Hahaha.
Speaking of suicide,projects are very suicidal.I can never not curse when doing my projects.And I have 3 in line and the datelines are all the same.Thats fucking 1 week from Friday.I might just pass out typing too much.But at least I’ve done 2.haha.So suicidal thoughts aside,weekends,please hurry.I can’t wait to get out of here and eat good food.
I’m already fat so I don’t care.Kapish?
Wow,haven’t wrote an actual blog entry for some time.That kinda feel,good.
And have I mention how much I want to do Johnny Depp?yeah,thats me for you
Au revoir
My life is okay.New term has started so I have to force myself to sleep every night.I’m used to staying up till dawn that I find it hard to sleep like a normal person at night.I even resort to taking flu medicine but no,it doesn’t work at all.Haha
Just 2 more months and i’m gone.Is it weird that I’m excited for Chinese new year?Maybe not.
Dude,my first post in 2010.Was too busy past few days but this was always in my mind.I’m not going to talk about 2009 already.I just want this year to be great…great like 1998.
sup guys?so here it is…the last year of 2009.Too bad it was not my year.I’m here at starbucks with some of my closest friends hoping to see the fireworks and hope for a good year.Hey…who doesn’t want that right?Don’t even talk about resolutions.I’m not good making one.Have a great year and don’t look back.
Au revoir.
My week was okay.I went out,spent the little money I had,look at people,curse the crowds,ride the smelly trains and lastly,eat awesome fast food(KFC,you make me happy)
Christmas eve was the best because I got conned by some man saying ‘it was a job interview’ but turns out,he wants our money for some networking bullshit.Burn you motherfuckers.Texted my Mum complaining about it and all I get is ‘haha.you should have stay on the old job’ Yeah thanks Mum.Just what I needed.
Went to Holland Village with my sister for coffee.Yes,we went all the way there for coffee.Jaykayyy
We went to her best friend’s work place and had coffee while waiting for her to knock off.We were just sitting on the roof patio thinking of where to go because 11pm is too early.Too early for me and my sister.We just hop on the train and stopped at Raffles and then continue sitting at the station and end up at Orchard.Good thing was it was already past midnight so the stinking crowds was rushing for the last train.Curse a foreign worker for spraying that awful smelling ’snow’ on us.I could have punch his face or kick his balls but there were too many cops.Darn you perv!Back to my awesome post,we just walked and walked and end up buying Mcdonalds and sitting at some stairs infront of the Adidas store.Looked like some homeless kids but we couldn’t care less.My sister started making her own songs with lyrics like “boring…we are so boring.where should we go?” yeah something like that.Thats why I love my bitch.
Reached home and continue watching the cable tv.My life pretty much is about television now.The internet do more harm to me.
And not to forget,my 22 december picnic was great although there was only 4.And it shall start reducing till I have 0.Thanks alot life.
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I don’t know why I never get things right.Sorry I’m such a whiner
Guess what makes my life more interesting?
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I’ve spent my days out for 3 days straight so I decided to stay home today.I can’t afford going out everyday besides my mum asked me and my sister to really clean up today because of what last day thing so angels would come to our house.Hah,we need some miracle.I need a miracle today.Right now.I don’t know who else I can ask for money.My mum just texted me asking where the $50 she gave me last week.50 can’t even last me for a week now.
I’ve got school work to worry about and a messy room to clean.And clean the toilet.Oh,shower too.
Okay,its awal muharam.I hate myself for not knowing it.
ARE YOU READY FOR MARCH 7 2010?!ARE YOU?!ARE YOU?ARE YOU?!
I WON’T GET OVER THIS FOR WEEKS.FEELS LIKE 2007 ALL OVER AGAIN.
josh biceps,we will finally meet.haha
Got to continue squealing like a little fangirl now.bye
Hey.How have you been?How’s school?How’s life?Oh.
Aren’t you tired of the same questions and answers everyday?I know I am.But honestly,I don’t know what to do in this life.Going to school just to please the parents and hoping of getting a job to stop asking money from my parents.I feel ashame some times even though I know that I’m still their responsibility as long as I’m here.Stuck here.
You hate how fast time goes,you hate how slow school ends,you hate waking up in the morning,you hate when the bus get too crowded with ‘office’ people with their briefcase and suits and think they’re so good,you hate it when they just push you without saying “excuse me”,”sorry”.You hate it when you don’t get to see the boy you always look out for,you hate it when you got too many projects,you hate it when you get fucked up team members,you hate it when you have to take the long bus ride home,you hate going home to a house full of useless and selfish people,you hate it when you’re broke,you hate it when you can’t hang out with your friend,you hate it when your friends get too busy with school and personal life,you hate yourself for being selfish,you hate yourself for being insecure,you hate yourself when you stay up in the middle of the night just to talk to a boy who is hundred thousand miles away,you hate…falling.
They say you’ll never learn the meaning of life until you go through hardships.But what the difference when happiness feel the same?I don’t know to how to differentiate it anymore.Don’t know who to talk to when I have problems.Who I can turn to.I feel like people around me are growing up too fast to realise I’m still here,in need of someone to listen and not judge.Someone who won’t roll their eyes or look away when I talk to them.Someone who would actually understand.
But I’ve lost it all.I feel like I’ve lost.Its like a war raging inside me and try to fight the urge of anger so bad.
If only you knew whats on my mind and whats going on with this life,you would know this is not whining but genuine.
But what do you know about genuine when you’re fake?Fake as my eyelashes.
You know what,just let it be.Don’t ask questions anymore.
Bye
